Unbearable Pain: My Fight Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Kelly Bailey
Kelly Bailey

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